LIPUNAN

july 26 ang bagong petsa ng aking kapanganakan.

         salamat, UPKagandahan. ^_^

the poverty in the metro’s streets is overwhelming. and here i am drinking my favorite starbucks coffee, knowing that what it costs will be enough to feed a starving family dinner. once, there was a kid begging for alms, and i just ignored the kid, and then i stopped and thought: she’s one of the people i’m writing for, i’m writing about… and yet i’ve shewed her. pretended she’s not there. and here goes the many contradictions of my life.

but then these street children, they are like ants. one drop of sugar, and the next thing you know they are swarming all over you. what if you have nothing else to give? catholic school education has taught me that giving alms in the streets does not help those you have given. there are proper institutions that help unfortunate people, and alms giving will just encourage them to continue their life as it is.

but what if those people have no other choice? what if the institutions set up for helping them are not enough, or are failures in truly identifying their needs?

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i’m asking myself, why am i doing this? why am i still here? is this what i really want? i feel like i’m in a chocolate shop, and i still haven’t chosen what to buy.

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admittedly, i am selfish, i’m a brat.

and you are nice because people have a penchant for nice.

   but why bother with their hypocrisies?

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i am such an OLD SOUL.

my blood  boils

                  from the coldness

of their apathy;

my body fuming

                from the iciness

of their logic

                  chilled by their will

         to keep the status quo

                frozen.

dahil adik ako at marami akong angas sa buhay, sige na makapagblog na.

malamang ang laging ma-uupdate dito yung photo album. lalo na pag may data cable na ako. ^_^